I can't (without a lot of pain):
- Stand much longer than ten minutes
- Cook dinner
- Clean house
- Take care of my horses
- Go for my usual hour walk with a friend at the mall or park
- Stand around after church and fellowship
I have learned:
- Jesus endured pain much more severe than I ever have
- My husband and son can cook. While they are not very skilled at it and it takes twice as long as it would take me, the food is still quite tasty! They also know how to pick up a pizza or Chinese!
- The house doesn't mind being dirty
- My horses are faring pretty well. Kevin is able to do what needs to be done. Daniel has learned how to pick their feet. (For you non-equestrians, that means cleaning the mud, grass, and manure from the bottoms of their hooves.)
- I miss walking and chatting with my friends. There's simply no substitute.
- I have to schedule sit-down fellowship, which means more lunches at Panera. I don't mind. Really. Sitting is not a problem. Not usually, anyway.
It is in Christ. That's it. Nothing else. My true identity is in Him.
So it doesn't really matter what I can accomplish in a day or how many things I can check off a list. And believe me, I'm a serious box checker! This has been a huge adjustment in my thinking. My feelings of self-esteem have always been tied to what I can do.
Now I know that Jesus loves me deeply, no matter how many boxes I've checked today. If there's only one box I've checked, it's okay. As long as it's the one that says,"Spend time with God."
What a hard path you've been traveling lately.
ReplyDeleteNone of us wants to work on those very important things that the Lord is teaching you in the way that you are having to work on them.
But I give Him praise that He is bringing good from bad. That's His specialty: redemption.
I have also learned over the past few years of my pain that because I'm not able to do much around the house, I do have more time to spend with God....in His Word and in His presence.
ReplyDeleteI don't have to seek to MAKE time for God....it's there much of the time.
I so feel for you as I've dealt with the same loss of things. My husband works from home so he's able to do most of the cooking and laundry and he's willing!
what a great post. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post. It is wonderful the way God is turning something hard into something positive in your life. But then that's His specialty.
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